To the Guy Who Asked Why

I'm sorry if I hurt you in the process of not wanting to have my heart broken. I'm honestly just so tired of getting hurt again because I don't know how long it will take me to get over a broken heart this time around.

It took me years to get over a guy whom I've put my complete trust in, who promised that he always got my back, that he would always be there, and that he would never leave.

I was idealistic and believed in his promises. For once, I was actually happy.

When he started to break his promises, I made excuses for him. That hurt but that was nothing compared to when I could actually feel him losing his feelings for me. The worst part? There was nothing I could do.

You can't make a person stay if he doesn't want to. It really made me question everything, all the what-ifs and if-onlys - what I did wrong, how I was not enough, what's wrong with me.

When he moved on to someone else so soon after what we had like nothing happened, it left me questioning if what we had was even real in the first place. Perhaps I was just too stupid and trusting?

I'm over him now but I realize that learning to trust people again is another story. I've learned that people can change their minds, lose their feelings, or walk away like everything you had meant nothing, that it was nothing.

It's a hard lesson to learn but which I have learned nonetheless, broken heart, devastated self-worth, and all - that no matter how good I'll try to be, someone else can always replace me.