Musings and Memories from Years Ago
- Izobelle
- Sep 30, 2018
- 3 min read
Updated: Apr 25, 2020
Today, I got a notification on my Facebook about a post that I did two years ago. I checked it out and remember I had this album on FB called "Moments and Memories". There are only six pictures on it with captions that basically summed up what I was feeling at that time.
Looking at it, it's amazing how time can change everything so drastically and how, at one point in my life, everything felt so differently. I'm over some of this by now but what I wrote definitely resonated with my life.
Here are the posts in that album:
I Don't Miss People That Much (September 30, 2016)
I don't miss people that much.
From a young age, I've learned that time has this weird way of numbing the longing until it fades. The sadness is always there, I guess, but the intensity lessens over time.
Maybe it's my life's way of coping, maybe it's my heart's way of dealing with a chapter that ends.
It's a reality I'm used to, something that was my norm, the rule that I play by - don't miss people too much, don't get too attached. It served me well, it always had until the night you took my hand.
You made me believe in things that I had lost faith in and started a chapter in my book that has been my favorite ever since.
I just wish I knew how fleeting, how few your pages would be because even though I don't miss people that much, I've been missing you ever since.
Tonight, I miss you like hell.
No Kids Should Go Hungry (October 29, 2016)
These two are cousins Margie and Ejoy. They were begging for food near the place where I am eating.
I don't tolerate people asking for money, but I don't mind buying them a meal or two. No one, especially kids, should go hungry. I hope I made their day a little better.
What Are Their Stories? (November 7, 2016)
I like to watch people and wonder about their lives. Are they happy? Are they sad? Do they have secrets that break their hearts too?
It's pretty crazy to see how, at a certain moment, in a certain place, our lives intertwine even for just a few second - we could be looking at the same balloon or praying for the same things and just like that, that certain point in time is gone and we move on with our lives - worlds apart, never knowing how the others live, uncertain about the future.
When Reality Is Still (December 29, 2016)
I think the most beautiful moments for me are those that stop me in my tracks and make me look up, only to be awed so profoundly by how great the world is, to be amazed by how breathtaking nature can be, to be so lost in that space in time, in its sunshine and beauty that not even a shadow of sadness could creep in and for a few seconds, reality is still.
Are We Supposed to Forget People Entirely? (December 30, 2016)
I don't know. Are we supposed to forget people entirely? Are we supposed to forget those who once made us happy because the memories hurt?
I'm not even sure if it's possible to simply just erase someone from our lives, to simply just tear out a chapter because we keep re-reading it.
Maybe someday, when all is calm and life is not so much of a rollercoaster ride, we can find peace with how things are now, despite how awful everything ended, no matter how sad everything turned out to be.
You'll Be Okay (March 31, 2017)
"You'll be okay."
I never believed that line until you said it and for once, I actually hoped that things would fall into place and that I would be fine.But then you're gone and I don't know anymore.
I'm still crossing my fingers that I'll be okay but more than anything else, I wish you're here.
This sucks. Honestly.
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